窗外 下起了绿豆般的大雨

雨水掠过树叶唰唰作响

凉风夹杂着青草的清香穿过百叶窗的缝隙飘进房间

轻拂着我的肩

 

印象中的洛杉矶从来没怎么下过雨

即便有过 也只是毛毛细雨

因此 今夜便是值得纪念的一夜

一个独自度过的周末的夜晚

 

放学后5点钟回到家

便一直在看下载好了的剧集

没有活动的周末的夜晚

好像也不是想象中那样寂寞难耐

其实即便有夜生活

面对陌生的面孔 处于喧闹之中 人还是会寂寞

 

剧集结束 我发现人其实是很容易迷失自己的

沉迷于娱乐 朋友太多 工作过重

都会让人忘了审视自己 让人忘了自己真正的需要

 

因此一如既往地 我坚持告诉自己 自省很重要

同时 也告诉自己 别太在意别人怎么看自己

我走我要走的路 和别人无关

 

那 明天也要加油咯!

 

Alright, i gonna write more scraps in English.

Actually, i don't really feel like to do this,

in respect that i don't think i can express myself in English as well as i do it in Chinese,

but Miss Crook just mentioned that my writing sucks,

my vocabulary is damned weak,

and she even recommened me to drop this class and take a lower level one.

It forced me to do so.

i wanna get an A, ok? At least, a B...

 

Okay, let's talk about the risk of being online for hours everyday.

Being serious, living here is too boring,

thus i spent almost all of my off hours online.

Being online is entertaining.

You can do everything, watching shows, shopping, bullshitting, you know, whatever you like.

Imagine that you just sit down and stare to the srceen and feel like going to a concert,

hanging out with a hot gal, or travelling in a wonderful place.

How cool will that be, huh? Amazing!

However, after i shutted down my laptop,

lying down and looking at the ceiling,

i was immediately hauled to face the true world,

the unfinished homework and credit card bills.

Everything was gone.

The interesting shows, the hot gals, the friends, everything was gone.

i only had one question for myself,

"who am i?"

Feeling like losing yourself,

you would know that everything online is illusion.

 

Seriously, don't put yourself online too much,

go out and feel the world by heart, thinking.

We don't need any illusion, OK?

 

OK, got to sleep...

 

need no illusion

 

一个人走在路上 必须面对一堆现实的问题

为了日后的收入稳定 必须以好的成绩从好的学府毕业

又因为英文词汇的贫乏 则必须减少课程以保证质量

收入不高 却想要搬去更好的住所 换辆舒适的房车

则必须扎紧裤头能省就省

或许为了能全心专注于事业 应该早日结婚生子

有太多事情需要被认真地考虑 并被坚韧地付诸实施

 

此时 我不需要幻觉

关于爱情 关于对未来的想象 关于别人对自己的看法

都只是幻觉

想得太多会令人脱离现实

无端的欢喜或陷入迷茫 焦虑或担忧

 

我知道 我应该静下心来 坚实的走好每一步路

什么应该去做 什么不该发生

静下心来 清醒一下

ok的

 

这两天强劲的热浪袭击LA

很困 却热得睡不着.